ABOUT

My name’s Matthew Young. I’m 47 years old, and I had my first drink when I was 13. Since then, my life has been an endless cycle—getting sober for a while, thinking I finally had it figured out, and then slipping back until I was right where I started: drunk, isolated, and beating myself for letting it happen.

I started this blog because I need a reminder of where I’m headed. I’ve made a couple of attempts before—blogs like I Am Not Powerless and The Sober Musician. Each time, I wrote with the same hope: to put my story out there, to be honest about the mess of it all, and maybe to give someone else a little hope in the process. Writing feels like a release for me. It’s messy and imperfect, but it’s also healing.

This isn’t just about me, though. I know there are a lot of us out there, carrying similar stories, trying to find a way forward. If you’ve got something to say—your own struggle, your own wins and losses—I’d love to hear it. Others would too. Sometimes just knowing you’re not the only one can make all the difference.